They invalidate everything about you, suppress your feelings, and make you feel like a burden. How could you not feel alone when loneliness is what they offer you, through silent treatments, stonewalling, disconnecting you from friends and family, and isolating you when you need them the most? When you are on your own, everything is at peace and stable. Yes, you lack the company of another person, but nobody is harming you. However, when you are with them, you are harmed in every single way. Every time you seek help, validation, or comfort, you are met with rejection, pushback, and abuse.
I’ll tell you the opposite, as your strength makes me feel insecure.
You are strong, resilient, and capable, but I’ll tell you the opposite because your strength makes me feel insecure and weak. Deep down, I am jealous of you. I can’t stand your light, your genuine empathy, or the fact that people are naturally attracted to you. I envy your personality traits and wish I could have them, not to become a better person, but to gain more supply. I hate the fact that you’re not destroyed by my abuse. You may be impacted, but you’re not totally destroyed. That makes me feel like a failure. I want you to believe that you’re nothing but ashes, stuck in the darkness of my abuse. I want you to stay there, as it confirms my superiority over you.
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