All of this doesn’t prove God is cruel because God gives them enough chances. The narcissist self-sabotages, bringing this punishment to them when they collapse; it is their punishment. When they hit that old age and they see all of that supply is lost, that is their punishment. There is one common thing said in all scriptures: God doesn’t like arrogance, and if he lets these arrogant people succeed, or, let’s say, grow, live, or blossom in any way, it is for their own doom because the more they grow, the more it will hurt when they collapse. The second thing God does to a narcissist is that he takes away all their sources of supply. For example, a narcissistic parent loses all contact with the children they thought they had caged; they think they own them. And now, when they are older and they recognize the narcissism in their parents, they completely cut them off, and the narcissist is left dry to die. He takes away all their power, all their strength, and all those things they used to boast about. I have seen this happen with my own paternal grandfather, who is a militant narcissist and used to think of himself as God. He used to walk with so much pride and arrogance and would love the fact that he was capable of instilling fear in his family members and so on. Now he is a bunch of bones left, with his loneliness rotting every single day. He doesn’t know what peace is. No child of his gives a damn about him because they’re all narcissists like him. And he always says things like, ‘I used to be this, I used to be’that’—that delusional fantasy he couldn’t live because he thought he would be young, always powerful. But God threw that reality at his face, and he has lived a long life, which is also what God does to them; they live a long life, and it’s not a gift; it is suffering.
The third thing God does to a narcissist is let them live in a pure state of dissatisfaction and dysphoria. Because the narcissist thinks nothing is enough, they want more and more and more, but still, nothing is enough for them. It’s like a vessel with a hole in the bottom; everything gets leaked out. They’re not thankful; they’re not grateful. It’s not only applicable to the things they have achieved or have in their lives; it’s not just applicable to the money or the people. It is applicable to every single thing and to themselves as well. No matter what they do, they feel something is missing. This, in itself, is a trauma response. Many people feel that way, but they are able to acknowledge it; they are able to acknowledge that they have this tendency to be perfectionists and need to work on it. But with the narcissist, it is completely different. For a narcissist, this sense of something missing is always projected onto others and onto you, if you are their source of supply. That’s why they need you to dress better, gain weight, lose weight, look a certain way, do more for them, and speak a certain way. And no matter what you do, the target keeps moving. It is actually their own insecurities and their own shame that they aren’t able to acknowledge. And all of this projection creates a toxic cycle; they get trapped in it because they become blind to their own shortcomings.
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